I don't really have any friends that I can trust anymore. Everyone is pretty much a backstabber, any way I look at it. I'm depressed and I feel like I have no one. I've never felt more alone in my whole entire life. :(

I need a hug.

Okay, first of all, let me just say that I'm seriously going to start updating this thing again because I'm fucking done with Twitter at this point. I don't know who my REAL friends anymore. I don't even know why I bother being friends with these assholes anyway. I mean, you think people are your friends and then they turn around and BLOCK YOU FOR NO FUCKING REASON! How fucking immature can someone be? I mean, if you're going to block me, the least you could do is direct message me and tell me WHY instead of running scared like a little baby without giving me a reason. But most of the asshole motherfuckers on Twitter don't have enough brains or sense or courteousy to do that.

This fucking lesbian whore blocked me tonight, someone I used to be "BEST FRIENDS" with who I assumed liked me for me and understood the way I am. I even gave her advice when she needed it most. I fucking hope she keeps cutting and one day tries to kill herself again, because she's the pathetic one in this equation, not me. So many people have done this to me on Twitter and I'm fucking sick of it. I can't do it anymore. Twitter was fun at one time, but now...I just feel like everyone is using me, just for fucking kicks, for their own amusement, and sooner or later, they're going to join all the fucking immature haters out there and probably lick their cooches too just to be accepted. A lot of the time, I hate these bitches that I'm friends with on there. They might deny it, but I don't think they really give a shit about me like they "claim" to. I just want to take a fucking break from Twitter and all of them. I can't do this anymore. I just want some REAL friends that will love and appreciate me for who I am, and won't get their fucking panties in a wad over something I say that makes them just a little pissy that they go and block me. I want them all dead and I want to mutilate them so fucking bad. If only I could. Someday maybe.

But right now, I'm back here on Insane Journal and here is where I'm going to stay.

Does anyone even use this site anymore? Just checking.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE SEXIEST MAN ALIVE...JULIAN MCMAHON!


I know I've said it a million times, and I said it last year too, but I just have to tell you that there aren't enough words in the english language to express exactly how much you mean to me. I think I might just be your #1 fan! Obviously since I'm your "Mrs. McMahon." ;] If I could write you a 500 hundred page poem, I swear I would, but I think I'd probably run out of words that ryhme after the first few pages. I had been meaning to make you another birthday tribute like the one I made for you a few years ago, the one I gave you the link to in a letter a wrote you, but I didn't get the chance to this year, unfortunetly. And if I could be there "outside your trailer" to sing to you or something, you know I would be too. I'd be standing out there dressed like Christina Aguilera in her "Nasty Naughty Boy" costume, with the mask, the whip and of course the bondage equipment to tie your sexy ass up. Then, let the fun begin! YEAH BABY!:D ;] But alas, I can't. Maybe someday...if you let me that is. -winkwink- -nudgenudge- All I want to say to you is this, you've given me and the rest of your fans so much over the years you've been acting and entertaining us in movies and tv and I can't thank you enough for all of that and then some! You are truly an amazing man and just an amazing person all around! I wish there were more men in this world like you. They could definitely learn a thing or two about how to treat women and just people in general.


You've had such an impact upon my life. I've loved you ever since you were on "Charmed" and that's a long time, and I've followed and supported you through everything. I thank God every single day for the three moments that I was lucky enough to meet you, and how kind and sweet you were to me, just like you are to all your fans. You are at the top of my list as the nicest celebrity I've ever met so thank you for that! -bows- "I'm not worthy! I'm not worthy! I'm not worthy!" Hee hee! There aren't many celebrities these days that are nice enough to take the time out to give back to the fans and you doing that as much as you can, really shows what a kind and generous person you are. It takes an amazing actor to pull off such roles as you do, especially the dark, evil or mean characters you play when you're the exact opposite in real life. It's so damn sexy! You make me hot everytime you play one of those roles! Hot and bothered, that is. FUCK YEAH! Your acting ability has inspired me so much that it has inspired me to create my own character with you in mind, Victor Bane. You're part of the reason why I continue to write and write as much as I do, and you're also the reason I continue to read. It's fun to imagine you as the character in either my stories or that of others and I'll never stop as long as you keep doing what you're so good at...blowing us away with your acting skills and that fucking fine ass of yours. I wanna tap that ass!


So, what more can I say except you're the sexiest most perfect man alive and baby, you know you are! You keep working that sexy body that you work so well! YEAH BABY! Everyone loves you and why shouldn't they? You're like vanilla ice cream! Who can resist you? No one. Whatever you do today, I hope it's the greatest birthday ever! I hope you get to spend it all day with Madison and family and friends all around! Invite Dylan and everyone over and have a huge bash! Go nuts! Shake your booty till you drop! You deserve it! And you know, if you need some female entertainment to perform at the bash, just give me a call. ;] I'll be right over to provide you with that and a whole lot more...maybe even a lap dance! I've got a list a mile long of naughty songs to do for you. :D From "Nasty Naughty Boy" to "Candyman," to "My Love Is Like..Wo." Whatever you want. Hopefully whatever you do is in L.A. and you actually come out of your house tomorrow in the hopes that I can bump into you again. ;] You'll know its me because I'll be wearing what else but my "Mrs. McMahon" T-shirt, my "posh" shades and a black newsboy type hat.


If I could send you a gift, I would, but let's just consider the "Julianlicious" hat I gave you back in October at the Hollywood & Highland event as your nine month early birthday present. Teehee! In closing, I just want to say, don't worry about how old you get because as me and all the other girls say, you're a fine wine that only gets better with age baby! Yes you fucking do! I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you! I love you more than anyone! You're my heart, the center of my world, and I don't know what I'd do without you to fill my days, which are always filled with joy. Even when I have a shitty day, I know that watching you will always make me feel 100% better. You're exactly what the doctor ordered so thank you for everything! Thank you for that big hug and the wink you gave me the first time we met, the way you held me so close to take that picture and calling me "Mrs. McMahon" on camera the second time we met, and giving me a shoutout during an E! interview and calling me a "sweetie pie" the third time we met. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU! I love you with all my heart. Nothing in this world will ever change that.


XOXX


Forever Your "Mrs. McMahon,"


Amy <33

Friends Only bitches!

E! REPORTER: "You must get a few marriage proposals and such."
DYLAN WALSH: "There's that girl that always wears that T-Shirt, 'I'm Mrs. McMahon.'"
JULIAN McMAHON: "Yeah. She hangs outside my trailer."
DYLAN WALSH: "Actually she is his wife!" ( dylan, I ♥ you! :D )
JULIAN McMAHON: "That's the problem with the whole thing, I just don't want anyone to know about it!" ( and baby, I ♥ you even more! )




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If you intend on adding me, we better have something in common. I don't just add people because they want to make their friends list bigger. I honestly don't care how big my friends list is, but if I add you, I would assume that you can handle my drama. Yes, I'm a drama queen the majority of the time, I'm obsessed and talk about Julian 24/7, plus I bitch and complain about certain things, but who doesn't? If you can't handle that, don't add me. Just move on and go harass someone else. Otherwise, if you want to actually take the time to get to know me, go right ahead and comment to your heart's content and I might add you back.